Drops of clear tears

I'm really sad guys. I hate being sad and unable to cry. There are times I just want to cry just to relieve the sadness and I can't. And of course, as I write this, I am sobbing. I've been cutting a bit recently. I know I really should stop…

Digging the past

With all the stress in the last few months, I just want to be honest and say it's been hard to cope. I think my work life has taken the biggest hit. I'm growing less productive it feels like. I feel like so many things are out of my control…

A bad dream

I haven't been sleeping well due to having some bad dreams the last few days. There was one night where my husband woke me up because I was yelling "I hate you!" in my sleep. The fact that it was loud enough to wake him up must have meant I…

The long haul

I had a relatively bad day today. It felt like it only got worse as it went along. I don't give up easily but there are limits to my patience. I ended my work day shutting my laptop in frustration and anger. This is when my day started to look…

Tipping point

This week, I've had a lot on my mind from work to wedding to marriage to honeymoon to coworkers leaving to ... yea, crazy. In the last month or so, there's been so much change in my life that sometimes, it's hard to really keep any sort of control on anything…

And then there I was.

I would like to take time to express how much I've struggled the past couple weeks. I probably have the worse coping skills when it comes to big changes. Having said that, lately it feels like everything around me has been changing. Lots of changes at work that I've struggled…